5 Oktober

I no longer know which way I should go.

I do not even know what I want to do wijth my life.

Why, it feels like the end?

I do not know where to go.

I see no light.

Is just gone in the fog, who never want to end.

Is it just beginning?

Or is it almost over?

I would not be in this place, take me away from here.

I can no longer see, everything is gone now.

It's like I have fasted in a nightmare that never want to end.

Anxiety chasing me day and night.

there is no one who understands,

why can not you just take how I feel?

The soul burns and I crushed piecemeal.

I can not have it so, help me be free!

Memories remain, they will never disappear.

They both good and bad ones.

It is them I will take with me, until everything is final.

Everything has changed, nothing is the same.

just take one day at a time, and do his.

but how to be able to walk this long road, without you helping me,

I can no more!

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Can not fight more, because whatever I do So it will be just wrong.

Whole body seizures for every tear that flows

The days are as eternal and everything just crushed.

I can not cope with this more, just want to delete.

Away to a better world, without any problems.

For stops I left here, it will become a hell.

Not only for me but for everyone around me.

You do not understand how I have it, and how difficult it is.

Just to get through a single day is like an eternity.

I wish you could take, I wish you could see. But you're not. you will never do.

You say that you look at me when I feel shit.

you see it every time or only when I have cramps?

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I wish you could understand how much I suffer.

and how difficult things are for me right now.

it is not easy, but I have been struggling so it goes.

But now it has stopped, I can not do it.

I can not cry more, it hurts everywhere.

the tears turned to blood, and it's like fragments of glass all over me.

I do not know what to do.

I guess I've chosen the wrong path in life.

one step further and everything is over.

please do not force me into things, you do not understand how I feel.

just think and hear you say "it will go well, you got it!"

it makes me just shake with fear.

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I dare not, I'm too weak.

even if you say I'm strong, but you know what?

have you looked at me really closely?

makes it so you can see how much I shook.

when you know how scared I am,

of losing everything I have.

/Patricia.